Cruel. Cruel cruel cruel.

Thanks! I saved them for later listening. :)

This is crazy. Crazy good.

Making up a plan for how to take care of myself. As it currently stands, it entails:

1. processing childhood trauma and the symptoms that it causes today
2. learning how to affirm myself by learning how to give zero f*ucks about norms and expectations

Unless I deal with the above first, I don’t see how I’m going to find energy to do anything else, even though I want to exercise, eat well and whatnot.

I was NOT prepared for LUDACRIS to pop up here hahaha thanks! And thanks for the cultural insights :D

I just listened to it and wow… I’ve been playing music for two decades now, but this is some virtuoso playing :D

Holy crap, what am I in for?! I did some research without reading the story and there were mentions of a controversial rape scene. Is that what this is about?

Wow! Thanks for the fast reply! I’ll listen to the song. :D

This should go on their wiki.

My therapist doesn’t really give me advice. She has a certain way of talking, looking at me, having a certain body language that either provokes me or inspires me - or my subconsciousness - to come up with alternate solutions, ways of thinking, behaviors and whatnot. Only when I’m apathetic, catatonic, having a panic attack or otherwise incapacitated does she actively provide concrete advice.

At first, I wanted to punch her in her above-it-all stuck up face, but two years later, I’m so grateful for her and her methodology. She has helped me developed my introspective skills. She has helped me heighten my senses so that I can feel such small changes in my mood that I otherwise wouldn’t have been able to notice.

With that out of the way, these are some of the most miraculous moments that I have had with her:

1. we were in the midst of recreating a traumatic episode from my childhood. My mind - but really I, myself - was there and then. Just as I finished reliving the moment of abuse and I was crying to the point of hyperventilation, I heard my therapist’s voice saying, extremely quietly and gently, although not whispering: “if I would’ve been there, I would’ve said, that *** (the abusive action) is not okay.” This was so healing. All my life (30+ years), I had carried the burden of believing that I am stupid, ugly and worthless because of this episode. This is the first time anybody told me otherwise.
2. she helped me visualize and understand that my childhood trauma is a constant/static element, which is not changeable, and that my current health is made up of variables/dynamic elements, which are changeable. This was such a eureka moment, because it made me realize, that I should work on stopping fighting the child in within. He, my history, is not “the enemy”. What I want to change is how I feel about or relate to him in the present and future.

This looks awesome nevertheless!!!

You and this game took “sympathize” to a whole new level.

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This reminded me of those gory Pokémon roms.

Dope.

Yeah! Thanks for the link! This’ll be my bedtime story tonight. XD

Sweet! I’m gonna look up those ratios. Would be cool to see if there are calculations on arcing in vacuum.

Right! I was actually wondering why I wasn’t zapped by the outer casing or why there’s no warning sign about electrical current. Now it makes sense! :)

Thanks for the reference to Joule’s law and to static discharge! :D And great image of a Calrod element!

Thanks! I needed a good laugh. And also thanks for teaching me about the graphite! :D