Context
I’m a writer, but I’d like to be a comic book artist. I’ve been trying to learn how to draw on and off for years. At first, I felt like I didn’t have the talent for it, but looking back at what I’ve done in previous years, I think my problem is more about motivation. I just don’t find the same fulfillment in drawing as I do in writing. I’d like to find a way to break through this imaginary barrier…
I do remember thinking, years ago, how weird it was that I drew all the time but actually didn’t seem to enjoy the drawing process itself but just wanted the finished thing. Now I think that was because I’m also ADHD and there wasn’t enough dopamine in my clumsy attempts but luckily just enough to keep me going. Not that I would call myself “good” now but I know what I’m doing a lot more than 10 years ago. So I guess when I start a picture now I know that it’s likely going to be “worthwhile” and even if I don’t finish it, I’ll be learning something new.
Tangentially, that thing about wanting the finished product more than the process is something I recently heard from notorious AI image proponent Shadiversity. Which only convinced me more that people who like AI generated images are simply too weak to actually go through the pain and suffering AND has given me appreciation of my own efforts.