• GreenKnight23@lemmy.world
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    5 days ago

    I was afraid of ghosts, demons, evil spirits etc while growing up (crazy religious family). I just got fed up with it and became a bigger scarier monster than the monsters that scared me.

    my father told me once I was an adult that I was a psychopath because I didn’t react or respond to his punishments at some point.

    I told him what changed and that he was incredibly lucky I didn’t kill him in his sleep when I was younger, because the thought had crossed my mind many many times. so his sense of danger was spot on. this change happened around the same time he stopped being such an abusive shithead.

    moral of the story? IDK become a psychopath or something?

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            5 days ago

            I didn’t describe myself as a psychopath. I was called one. probably had something to do with me not screaming or crying when I was beaten with a belt or cowering in fear when I was screamed at.

            am I a psychopath? couldn’t tell you, never been diagnosed. do I have psychopathic traits? doesn’t everybody?

            trauma is one hell of a drug and can fuck you up as a kid, that’s all I know.