Arcden

Years ago I was talking with a pregnant coworker about our families. We got onto the subject of how quiet I am. She said “I would hate it if my daughter turned out to be like you.” I was just stunned tbh. Like damn, I can’t help it that I’m quiet. Why is that such a bad thing?

I don’t have an answer and it is the one thing I am truly afraid of. As an autistic man in this society I have come to the conclusion that I will most likely be alone in the future. Developing relationships of any kind is extremely difficult for me. Right now I’m ok because I have family that are still alive and want to care for me. But when they die where will I be? I’ve fully accepted that I may die by suicide in my 50s due to loneliness.